Home, Dates, Fun, Yelling and Christmas Eve

Home again for a bit. Things are the same here as always. I was home less than an hour and mom already started yelling at someone. Things just never change. It gets really difficult coming home from school sometimes. I hate it. Home should not be a place one dreads coming to. I miss the safety and security of my school. Things are so much more difficult at home. I know that is true for most college students but still. The first few days aren't so bad but then I start remembering why I hated it so much here. I sometimes just feel like curling up and crying. I just can't take it. Mom is so difficult and unpleasant. But at least I do have some fun this time.

I had a date with someone I met via the internet yesterday and it was amazing. We have been talking for a bit now and we have much in common. I really like him and he says he likes me. I have missed having a close guy friend who could be more and it is so nice. There is so much potential here but I am terrified of making a mistake and losing him at the same time. I don't want to mess this up like I did before. I am just going to let things develop and see what happens. He just really makes me happy and it's something I haven't felt in a long time. I mean I have been happy but haven't had someone like this who makes me happy since Paul and I have missed it so much. Sigh. I miss him.

Well we got the tree up and decorated. Dinner was had and I don't have to go to mass. SCORE!