Just a bad time

Things are difficult right now. I just am having issues. I don't think it is possible for someone to love me, to really love me. It is so difficult to feel unlovable. I just don't know what to do. It hurts to feel this way.

LOOOONG DAY

I am realizing that being home is not a very good idea. Being around my mother is so hard. She and I cannot get along. We manage day to day but it's hard. I wish I could do something about this. I don't want to live here but I don't have anywhere I can go.

Late Night Thoughts

Rip, tear, kill

Do whatever you will--

Take your hands around my neck-

Place them there and squeeze tight.

You don't know,

You don't care-

I've heard the saying "Life's not fair"

But see, you were never there-

No more fight, my strength is gone,

So I will leave in the dawn.

You can't come where I go

No emotion do you show.

Life is pain and pain is life-

When everything creates such strife.

Don't come knocking, No one's home,

No one there I'm all alone.

WIRELESS FINALLY

Ah, I finally got my wireless working in my computer hooked up to the wireless at my house!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!