Finding a Friend

Someone who understands is a rare find. Life is difficult as it is. So crazy.

Just A Girl and Her Mind

Why is it that some people live and some people die? Why do bad things happen to good people? Why do some of the sweetest people die? How can people go on when such wonderful women are taken down by a disease that they have so little control over? Eating disorders are the number one cause of death in the mental health field. Why is not more done for these women?! Insurance companies are in charge of providing money for treatment of illness but apparently eating disorders do not count. Bastards!

Life and Death

I recently found out that 3 of my friends from treatment died. These were amazing women who had so much to offer. Their death is an absolute tragedy. They should be alive and happy. I miss them so much. They will be forever in my heart and on my mind. I love them and know that they are in heaven happy and at peace.

Late Night Wonder

I have not written for a long time. I have been very busy. School is starting to pick up before the end of the semester. It gets very lonely sometimes. I miss the feeling of being loved. I miss being held. I feel so alone sometimes and I just curl up and cry. I feel like I'm loosing my friends. I lost the most important person in my life months ago and since then I have felt more and more alone. He did not doe or anything like that but he changed. He left me so to speak. But I have gone over this already in previous posts. But I am alone, alone in a lot of ways. I am alone, now and forever. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever find someone who will stay with me through it all. Life is so hard sometimes that I just wish that I could get it over already and die. I get so scared sometimes. I get panic attacks sometimes when I think about my life. I don't know what to do sometimes. I just wish I could count on someone but there is no one I can trust. I don't trust anyone anymore.

I AM WHO I AM

I am strong. I am proud. I am confident. Do not mistake me for someone who will be easy to push around. I am someone to contend with. I will fight for what I believe in. However, if you find my weak spot it might get dangerous. I have my problems and I have my issues. If you get close enough to know them ....who knows what that means.