Friend shit

Why is it that peoplecan be so stupid? Why do they tell their friends their problems but then not do anything when the friend tries to help and then blame the person when things happen that they don't want to happen and which could have been avoided if they would just follow through? Yeah that didn't really make sense. I just am so sick of this shit. I don't want to be her friend anymore. She treats people like crap when things don't go the way she wants. Yeah and the stuff she says happens could not have all happened so I don't even know what to believe any more. I think that she is doing this for attention but I don't know. It's so complicated and I don't have time, patience or the energy to deal with this anymore. I am not going to let her drag me down with her again. That happened once and it was aweful. It sucks that she does this to people. Does she even realize that by doing all of this she is alienating her friends. I feel really bad for her other friend that she relies on. I think in some ways he replaced me when I went off to treatment. She says that she cut a vein. I don't believe that because if she had she would not be around or she would have had to get stitches. Life really sucks sometimes. Oh well, she's not talking to be any more because her current state is all MY fault. RIIIIIIIIIIIIGHT. Nope she has to take responsibility for her own actions. If she had talked to her mother then she would not be in as much trouble, some yes, but not like this. Well whatever, she can do whatever she wants. She is not my problem. I have done what I can. I have gone to guidance and I have informed them of the current state so now the ball is in their cour and in hers so she can step up to the plate and take care of herself. If she is doing all of this for attention I will be really pissed at her. I can't imagine someone being this stupid and generally mean just for attention. I am just really sick of it all. I am not taking care of her anymore. It is time to cut the threads and let her go. She is not good for me to be around and I do not want to deal with her anymore. She is just trouble trouble trouble and I have my own concerns to worry about.

It's okay

Hey girl, every thing's going to be okay. I know that you are in pain and hurting. Life is very stressful and everything seems so hard and hopeless. But you will make it everything will be okay.
No it won't. No body knows, no one cares. I just should disappear and never come back. I wish I was dead.
No. People care and love you.
Not mom and dad.
I know. They aren't the best parents but they're trying. You have your friends though and you should really tell them or show them what's been going on. You just need to feel loved but you know that I love you.
I want to see Paul.
Yes I know. I do to and I'm working on that.
I miss him.
Me too.
I hate living here. I hate being taken for granted and not noticed but I never really expected anything different and it hurts.
I know baby, I know. I'm here for you.
I love you.
And I love you.