I AM

I am. I am what? What am I? I am a woman. I am human. I think therefore I am? No. I fight therefore I am. I fight to be who I am. I fight to be me. I fight to survive. I fight to live. I fight every damn day of my life. Whether it is the voices inside me head or the voices outside my head telling me I am not worthy, telling me I am no one, telling me how to live, telling me how to die. I fight. I fight so hard. Sometimes it is so hard. Sometimes I just want to give up, to just lie down and die. I am so tired of fighting. I feel like I'm drowning. I am just barely keeping my head above the water. How much longer must I keep treading water? How much longer can I keep fighting? I am running out of reserves. How much longer will I last? When will I finally give up and end it all. When will the fight be over?